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Year Three, Civil Engineering, Pt 11: And Eventually, Everything Comes to a Standstill

OK, so, I've been having lack of sleep, minor stress, major depression, and drastic economic fluctuation issues this week.

Being a third year, it's the year of projects. There's one for Foundation Engineering, one for Hydrology, and one for Highway Engineering. Hydrology is OK. Foundation is tough because I have no idea what's going on in class even though I attend practically every class. Highway was OK, but it takes waaaaaaaaaaaaay too much time and countless reconsideration from the lecturer.

To top that, I have the responsibility to be there for debate meetings because I am the society's president. I'm not complaining, but I think I'm starting to get sick and tired of debate. Not because I went to finals for YS (which, btw, is nothing to be proud of, really), but debating itself. I love the debate members who I hang out with; we are practically family. But I guess I'm just too tired to continue the fight to uphold English debating amongst UNIMAS st…

Year Three, Civil Engineering, Pt 10.5: Another Drumroll ... and It's Still Not For Me.

To be honest, I was disappointed. I could do better, but I guess I let the pressure go to my head.

Anyway, the Yayasan Sarawak World Style English Debate Challenge Trophy  2010 (A mouthful, I know...) just ended. I was in the finals, representing my university.

Did I win? No.

Did I lose? No.

I didn't win because ... well, I didn't. We (my teammate and I) got 2nd, which is better than 3rd or 4th, right? Yea, I was sad and disappointed because I did feel we could have win this thing. I guess I got too confident, eh...

Technically, I lost, but I win because I meet new people. Although most of them I practically know their name already (and they have yet to realize I exist), I meet some more new faces. So it was kinda cool. Oh, and the experience. Besides KDL, there wasn't any other tournament in British Parliamentray style that I've joined, so it was definitely fun.

So, yea, we did get RM3k. Sounds a lot? The champs (Swinburne) got RM4k.

I can't hide the fact that I a…

Year Three, Civil Engineering, Pt 10: Even If You Have to Return to Reality

Finally!! I had time (and the mood) to post up a new ... err ... post.

Anyway, I haven't been blogging lately because my life has been so swamped, especially with one thing: debate.

A lot of reading up, a lot of late nights, a lot of printing, a lot of practice. these four elements sums up to the messy room, the piling-up assignments, and the lost-tracking of dates, days, and work done or not done. The only thing that oractically got updated constantly is my music library. I need music as therapy.

With the finals over, the debate championship is done. Thus, I shall move on with life. Yay!

I seriously have tons of assignments to get to, but I can't seem to be able to start any. There's too many! I shoulkd learn how to prioritize, huh? Not to mention there's ONE more midterm test, which is practically 3 weeks away from finals.

Looks like it's back to reality.

Year Three, Civil Engineering, Pt 9: Then Again, You Gotta Strike a Balance in Life and Stop Complaining

Wow. Felt like forever since last updated this blog. It's not like anyone read 'em anyway.

I realise that I've been complaining a lot over the last few parts about me not liking my studies. I guess it comes to the point where i just give in and do the best I can. I try to work as hard as I can, though failure will continue to exist. I hope that I can manage to pull all this off. Once I get my degree, I ain't getting near engineering. But that's now. Ask me again in 10 years.

Anyway, although it has taken A LOT of my time, I find my time in the debate society the best of my life. It's a way for me to escape the world for a while, even though I'm still technically on campus, but the adrenaline rush you get from debating keeps me happy. Oh, that and the hope that I would finally lose weight, a lot of weight.

I've always pondered why my life couldn't be like everyone else's. Full of opportunities, full of chances. They have talent, the looks, the v…