Showing posts from June, 2012

A Comma Rather Than a Fullstop

Some say they're not good or not ready for goodbyes. Neither am I.
But somehow, this time around, it may be more difficult.


You know that feeling when you're not sure what you want anymore?
What you're doing here? Why are you here?
Where are you heading to? What are you doing what you're doing?
Why do you care? Why do other people care?
Why even bother? What good does it bring?
Is this a test from God? Why is He doing this?
Did you do something wrong? If yes, what exactly?
Is it from being yourself, or from being someone you are not?
Will you ever discover yourself? Will you ever learn?
Will you ever find your purpose, or are you doomed?
Is your Fate sealed,  or you're subconsciously working on your Destiny?
Is anything worth it anymore? Should you quit?
Will your decisions hurt others? Do you want to hurt others?
Would you rather harm yourself instead?
Are they judging you? Are you judging yourself?
Are you trapped in a mistake too big too fix?
Is giving up the best option? Is it the only option left?

I ask myself these questions every single day, and no answer is given by anything or any…

If I Ever Get Around To Living


The 'Superman' Playlist

Train - Ordinary Joe Brooks - Superman Chad Kroeger & Josey Scott - Hero Remy Zero - Save Me AM Radio - I Just Wanna Be Loved The Fray - Look After You Muse - Sing For Absolution Copeland - Take Care Gavin DeGraw - I Don't Wanna Be

Is It Over Yet?

My laptop won't boot. Every time after the Windows logo, it crashes and restarts automatically, then asks me if I want to do Startup Repair. When I do, it works for a while, then they blue intro page appears and stays that way for a very, very long time. I haven't backed-up my data yet, especially my songs. Emotions are getting unstable as time goes by.

It's Monday. 2 assignments and 1 project due this week, another project next week. A possible midterm retest on Wednesday. First finals exam paper on Saturday. I'm slowly giving up on my degree. Might just drop out of university if this keeps on going.

I'm broke. Got to bring my dogs for a flea jab, no money yet. Thought of looking for a summer job if I'm lucky or am able to overcome my awkwardness for a little while.

Dad's wounds are not healing very fast. He's complaining of constant pain when his skin gets in contact with water. Mom keeps telling me not to worry about the family, just study. She'…

The Princess, The King


The 'I Will Miss You' Playlist

Sarah McLachlan - I Will Remember You Audio Adrenaline - Goodbye Christina Perri - Distance Emmylou Harris - Love That Will Never Grow Old A Fine Frenzy - Almost Lover Zee Avi - Is This The End Ashlee Simpson - Catch Me When I Fall Coldplay - See You Soon Hope - Who Am I To Say