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troubled #8/worrier #2

So, now there's a plot twist: I may be asked to return next semester.

The thing is, I've already set my mind to make plans after this contract is over. I'm flexible, though, and I do need the money.

Upside, I get money. I have a job. Bills get paid. I won't be stuck at home doing nothing.

Downside, I'm getting nowhere. I'm going nowhere. I'm settling. This is only a part-time job that doesn't guarantee a career. This is not feasible in the long run.

Other thoughts, I've told a few people I'm coming back and not going back to this job. It's not a bad job, but it's not permanent. My other interview hasn't gotten back to me. My mind is messed up, and I want time to rethink my life direction. I want to learn new things. I don't want to settle with this. I am going nowhere. I don't favour this place anymore. I've broken out of my comfort zone, and it's not a bad thing.

A lot of clashes, confusion, and opposing thoughts jum…