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work #6: to quit or not to quit

There was a post meant to be about how last year went, and it was supposed to talk about how I felt about everything last year. In truth, I found last year to be somewhat good. I went places, learned a lot, and honestly learned to be better.

Somehow, the beginning of this year made me want to go back to last year.

It's only been a month, but I'm tired. Tired of it all.
Maybe it's all this pent-up frustration of the entire system , and somehow it has reached some peak of emotions.

Once again, I'm a mess. this time, I don't know if I would be able to overcome it.

Previously, I tried so hard to get over it, and I did.
I lied to myself that everything will be OK, that things will work out eventually, that I am content and satisfied with where my life is heading right now.

But now? Today?
Not so much.

I know other people have worst struggles that I have right now.
I feel for them.
Some people would consider me lucky to have a job which they covet, but didn't get.
Me…