I'm in a constant state of sadness. Some people call that depression. But I guess you couldn't tell. Unless you've read this blog. Or know me. Then again, people who know me won't think I am.
some measure luck based on success in life, i.e. you're successful because you're lucky that you grab or get opportunities other missed.
other consider luck to be something that you are destined i.e. you're born lucky, because you have enough money to get what you want.
I still hate this job.
But now, I resent it.
It intensifies every day.
I still love the money.
I need to hold myself together long enough to pay off RM15k in student loans.
Also to fix the house.
Also for some travelling money next year (wishlist: Disneyland or Wizarding World).
I don't think I'll ever get out of this rut.
Not like I can.
At least, not now.
That's it for May.
I'm too jaded to do anything.
The worst part, Goodreads keeps telling me I'm 4 books behind for my 2017 Reading Challenge *groans*
All I do is attend meetings, hold meetings, and site visits. Sometimes I sign documents.
Sure, maybe it's because it's in district level so things move little slower than in headquarters. Either way, I'm truly bored in this job. It's not fulfilling, although the money is good, which means I get to buy things or travel without anyone's permission.
But truly, I wish for more than just this.
I know, it's comfortable being in this position, and being in the civil service under the Gov. Your job is permanent, cashflow is stable, and the occasional bonus happens once in a while when there's a festive occasion. So yes, I can't complain much.
But above all that, the job feels stale. Everything is routine. A lot of paperwork.
I can't say if it's because that I'm an introvert that I find this job boring.
No. I get an office all to myself, and major alone time. Should be cushy for an introvert, no?